Sunday, December 12, 2010 @ 6:44 AM
i gained weight.
yea, i talk about it a lot.
it annoys you, thats okay.
i seriously gotta get my act together.
i've got to make time for it, and i will right?
i will.
and , no more maccas. or no more icecream?
no lollies. no :( nothing .
i dont know where to start.
but sometimes i'll think, one wont hurt, but it happens again and again.
no use.
no more slurpees.
no more no more and no more.
where do i start :(
Monday, December 6, 2010 @ 5:57 PM
bleh. here's the only place i can vent out right now.
i dont exactly know what it is myself, i just feel uneasy.
i feel like , tension has built up, and im not letting it go, for some odd reason.
LET IT GO.
like, right now, i feel like crying. crying for hours, and hours.
but i just :( i dont knowwww.
bleh. i dont like this feeling .
Saturday, November 20, 2010 @ 3:06 PM
its time for change.
it'll happen.
Thursday, November 18, 2010 @ 8:12 PM
i want and want and want.
but im not doing anything to get it.
im stupid that way .
Saturday, November 13, 2010 @ 7:45 AM
do you ever, feel lonely.
when technically youre not.
youve got family, friends
but you just , you get that feeling.
i think ive got that now.
like. an outsider. somehow.
does that even make sense.
i feel so retard :D
i think, im not sure yet. hmm, the honeymoon phase..
well A phase. its that time, when my usual thoughts crawl back.
those ones.. of negativity.
pessimistic thoughts.
gah.
ive had like, horrible nightmares, finding myself crying as i awake.
ive had those times, where those thoughts just hit you like a slap in the face.
yea .. i almost cried in tutor :D what a freaking idiot :)
why :(
why does my mind think like this.
everywhere we walk, in bankstown that is,
its - hey hung, and starts talking, and like. a lot. and a lot of chicks too.
omg shoot me.
what am i doing. what am i thinking.
i really think :) im the jealous type. like a LOT.
well, obviously.
i miss him. he's going to help his sister today, nhaww.
but im so jealous of those who get to go out and just, chilllll. hanggggg. like.
i mean i guess i cant complain. i see him every week, but its just that like.
hes always out.
im, on the other hand, off to tutor.
always.
he's really sweet though :)
i just really, want to spend lots of time with him
like a day out,
or a night :)
xx
Thursday, November 11, 2010 @ 5:01 PM
i want;
so many things. -tobebeautiful.
clothes, shoes, brains, a nice body, athletic, talented.
gahhh.
Sunday, November 7, 2010 @ 7:13 PM
its frustrating.
i want to help you.
dont see that?
natural instinct to worry about you,
you tell me not to,
i ask why
and you say whatever?
i really want to know why.
how come you feel that wayy? :/
i dont want to be like, pushed away.
i still wanna be here for you,
you dont understand that do you?
just tell me something i can do, other than stop worrying.
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