We are human beings and we make mistakes.
I am aware of the many mistakes I've made and I'm sorry.
I'm trying my best to make you happy and live life to its fullest, with or without me, as long as you're happy :)
I do hope it's working but that's for your judgement and opinion to speak.

It's not that I don't care about losing you, I care deeply if I did.
You really mean a lot to me, you're practically apart of me.

I felt like crying today at Judy's Birthday Party. It was a BIRTHDAY PARTY, but, I missed you so much I did a little, while we were watching Bride Wars. Do you really see me in a wedding dress? Haha, I found it a funny thought, they were both skinny yet one didn't fit into her dress well, and I'm thinking, I'm so lazy I'll gain weight and the same would happen to me, but in a MUCH bigger version. And at the end, where one of the couples didn't get married because they've been together for 10 years, I think it was, I just hoped our ending wouldn't be that way. For as it was said in the movie, right now we are dead and our beginning is when we get married. I want to get to that beginning, with you.

The movie though, did bring out a lot of my negative side. Even if my flaws and imperfections make me who I am, I have this thought that it's not good enough. You continuously remind me that I'm beautiful and pretty, and when you say that, my spirits soar through the sky which just shows, without you, I could breakdown in such negativity and close to depression. I Need You.

I miss you darlink, <3