It's not the greatest new i know.
i think im falling for another..

Post after post,
i talk about him,
how those things i am,
arent for him.

i love him for his caringness,
i love him for the way he, word after word, just seemed like he loved me so much.
it hadnt bothered me then as much, but now.
are games that much more fun than i am?
or, more important?
more prioritised?
i really, dont want to tell him to stop.
if i had to stop doing something i liked, id be so annoyed, and probably continue anyways.
but, he talk about games so much
as if i meant nothing at all.

after that breakup, it really hurt me to see you so sad
you were so eager to have me back.
but now that i am bacl, youre back to how you had been.
not seeming to care as much anymore.

i dont understand.
and i dont know what to do in this situation.
i love him that much, that i felt i couldnt let him go.
not even a break could do.
but now, i blehh.
i dont know.

before, thinking of breaking up, had me crying.
a little before that break up, and afterwards, had me crying for hours.
you dont seem to understand exactly how i work yet, well, in areas you do, like the things i like, but in others, as the break up was unexpected, im unpredictable.
arghh. whyyyy.
really ><

Well, let's just see how the other guy fits in.
I met him through, no other than OMGPOP.
At first, he had just been another friend i had made while playing Balloono.
But then,
Recently, we've been talking quite a lot on msn.
And, on the phone.
He has this friendly vibe to him.
He too is caring.
He's funny.
He's sweet.
He's quite into music.
And listens well into lyrics like myself. or at least i try my best to x) depends on the singer i guess x)
well yea,
He's really into cars, and even though, i just like the looks of cars x), its cool.
Even through a short time, I've learnt much about him, like
He's half Filipino, half Japanese.
He drives a red car.
He's 17.
He's from Hawaii.
He DEFINITELY has an accent x).
He goes to KCC.
He lifts weights x).
He doesnt like to eat much.
He can drive and text at the same time.
And drive and talk, or watch MOVIES :O
He's the multitasker.
He likes Harry Potter. And the way I say harry Potter x)
He likes Subway.
He also likes Domo.
He knows quite a bit of Jap. --WABAKIS.

I guess that's what i can think of at the moment.

i THINK he likes me .. i dont know. i can never be too sure, maybe im just seeing weird signs,
and i always get confused and yea. but hes been staying up till 2 just to talk to me, is that something?

He in ways, could be an ideal boyfriend,
I love Pedarh, but things are starting to change between us.
And things that worry me are like , yes what i said above.
And i get this feeling, he deserves more than me.
And he wants more from that i just cannot, have or be,
Maybethese feelings are normal to a relationship of more than a year and a half .. but i dont know know .

Im not exactly sure what i should be doing.
I love him, but im falling for another ..



Now what ?