every now and then, i still feel like giving up,
but i know, i know i cant.
and i wont,
but that temptation
the feelings,
those hurtful emotions.
theyre all there, covered by the fake smiles and laughs.
covered by everything im not..
when can all this be over,
i wish, i could be that positive person so many people have,
so many people strive for and succeed.
i know i always say negative things,
i bring myself down all the time.
why cant i just stop.
stop feeling those things.
why do i care so much of what others think.
why, why, why.
makes me hurt more than i already am,
but i still let myself do it?
maybe, im bipolar.
i dont really know,
and at this moment,
i dont seem to really care.
where do i go from here,
im still the lost child,
i still feel like crying everyday,
i still feel worthless,
ugly,
useless,
stupid,
an embarrassment,
obese,
everything, you just don't want to be.
DEARYOU.
You're here on JENN's page. Jenn, 16, Sydney, Female! Visit my youtube channel!
RIGHT HERE!
Now, Enjoy what you see,
Maybe, you wont.
Wont matter too much, its not that fun anyways
Just, DO WHAT YOU LIKE :D
So, here will be pretty much a list of the things i want, and i'll cross off as i go :)
it may be actual thing things, or something i'd like to achieve, yea. something in that sense! got it? i think i do B1 ! :)
→ try sorbet, mango? strawberry? passionfruit?
→ get my license
→ get a pair of those black striped undies that match my new bra - 11/07/2010 - $26.95
→ a guitar 3/4-size so that it fits well with my tiny body :D i wanted to get the half but realised how small it would be x)
→ a canon camera, the IXUS 130 IS looks pretty good :D the black one :) $296
→ a polaroid branded camera, not the old ones, but it prints out still nicely and all :) pogo something something :)
→ do quite well in year 11
→ go on an aeroplane :)
→ domo bag at jay jays! :) 34.95 :(
→ domo jumper
→ i need more pictures to stick up on my wall. i want my new woah 2010 to have some good moments too, those moments must be captured!
→ another packet of glow in the dark stars :D
→ justin bieber signed photo that i was winning until they took it down off ebay :( meanniees! i still like his music okayyy :$
→ CLEAR UMBRELLA
→ MONSTERS INC! + in 2012, watch monsters inc 2
→ case for my new camera
→ UP
→ cool fat shoes :D
→ learn to play guitar
→ pretty bonds undies :D
→ rayban new wayfarer - BLACK AND "TORTOISE"
→ a hat collection, aka ALL THOSE LOVELLYY HATS AT PARRA. NEW ERA x3
→ vans, purple+black, black+white, bright-ishblue+white, full black ones, full white ones
→ colourful adidas shoes x3
→ black 2.55 chanel lambskin quilted bag, the one with the silver chain, as well as the one with the gold chain :$
→ glow in the dark stars EVERYWHERE
i'll think of more later, BYE!
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