is it because i want to feel loved again?
i just miss those times,
just hugging,
fooling around like idiots,
talking endlessly,
watching you do your favourite things with that smile on your face,
the excitement you brought into my life,

here, i say these things not only for one i truly loved, and love.
but, for many.
the girls i left back at bhghs.
im not sure how like, mmm .
we're more of face to face people, you knows?
its hard.
and as year 12 comes closer and closer, theres just, hardly anytime to do anything.
i know, or i hope i know, they will always be there for me.
and i'll always love them for that, for being great friends,
just like twins right? :)
i daily-lie talk to you. and although we joke around with the weirdest insults,
youre like family too , even though mum forgot you, LOLLLL ;D hehe !
but yes :$
we've grown further apart, but im not sure which direction to take to make things all better.
im not sure at all.
to one, youre gone, out of my grasp, back into the sea. sometimes i still wish i was that fish.
but then, its time to move on. i know.
and im trying, i really am.
blog, remember a while ago, that guy i was talking about.
hes still in my mind.
hes still in my heart, but i feel hurt in ways that just, he's moved on from me too i think.
i even said, i feel like ive got no chance, and he denies so, but. tell me how many long distant relationships you see out there. how many have actually been working and going well.
hes introduced me to awesome RETROFIT PROJECTORS and COLOUR SHIFT i think it was called :$ and lowering your car thing is just dropping it ;D or something. yea.
he knows the cars i want :D with the american terms x) what a cutie x)
anyways, was off topic. umm . yea.
ive been looking into scholarships to american unis, but i gotta look at the courses they offer and all, theres so much to do.
like, even just the NOW - i havent printed off the syllabuses ! :( i have no textbooks to start writing notes on, how do i start ><

Girls and Boys,
thanks for being (t)here for me, in times of need, and just anytimes :)
you guys have been great and awesome,
im thankful for you all to be apart of my life.
and i really mean it.
i know there are some who mean more than others, but there are your LOVE YOU ALWAYS BRO! and the im getting there, the i'll be a great friend cos youre legen-dary ;D , the what not.
but im truly grateful.
thank you HEAPS.
i love you guys :)

xx, jenn.


im getting there.