im not exactly sure of the proper term to insert here.
but i felt sorta used today.
i know. i know what our situation is, what our relationship is
but i HATE her.
whats she to you?
this really nice caring person? or whatever.
i just, theres something annoying about her, and whatever whatever.
you know what ?
i did what i did because, i just want to play some sort of role in your life.
but there, i stopped everything i was doing to help you,
yea , thats right.
no thanks no nothing.
ive never gotten that sort of attention.

you know that how i met your mother episode when barney cant get the girl
so he and ted plan a WONDERFUL night, for barney and the girl
and then robin, :(
yea, right now,
i feel like robin.
" i never got treated that way "
" you've already proven that im not important to you "
you just dont see it .
i am another number to you.
i mean, what were you thinking? for that first day?
what were you thinking ..
im just a mistake that you made in your life.
obviously,

the lengths you went to ..
admit you'd never do the same for me.
i mean seriously.
i can die in some pothole. maybe thats not the correct term.
but if someone kidnapped me.
i was gone for a night,
you wouldnt even know.
you wouldnt even care until maybe 3, 4 days after.
when i could possibly be dead :)

i feel like my life is finally coming to end.
no, not the beginning of the end, but the end of the end.
here is my moment to shine,
with what i have ..