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Saturday, November 13, 2010 @ 7:45 AM

do you ever, feel lonely.
when technically youre not.
youve got family, friends
but you just , you get that feeling.
i think ive got that now.
like. an outsider. somehow.
does that even make sense.
i feel so retard :D

i think, im not sure yet. hmm, the honeymoon phase..
well A phase. its that time, when my usual thoughts crawl back.
those ones.. of negativity.
pessimistic thoughts.
gah.
ive had like, horrible nightmares, finding myself crying as i awake.
ive had those times, where those thoughts just hit you like a slap in the face.
yea .. i almost cried in tutor :D what a freaking idiot :)
why :(
why does my mind think like this.
everywhere we walk, in bankstown that is,
its - hey hung, and starts talking, and like. a lot. and a lot of chicks too.
omg shoot me.
what am i doing. what am i thinking.
i really think :) im the jealous type. like a LOT.
well, obviously.
i miss him. he's going to help his sister today, nhaww.
but im so jealous of those who get to go out and just, chilllll. hanggggg. like.
i mean i guess i cant complain. i see him every week, but its just that like.
hes always out.
im, on the other hand, off to tutor.
always.

he's really sweet though :)
i just really, want to spend lots of time with him
like a day out,
or a night :)

xx